Today was a huge day. I got up at 6 and did stuff till I went to eat with you till 5. I really haven’t gotten to spend enough time with you lately. I miss getting to spend time just you and me at the end of the day with no distractions so we can talk through what went on in our days. I miss praying with you and studying the bible with you.
I spent a lot of money today… well, when you consider how much of it will be paid back, I only spent about $150, and I will make $170 profit from all the gloves I got (it sure paid to wait till a fantastic sale), so I really came out ahead, even after buying a valentine’s day present and a backpack so you could have my old one. I bought a $45 part for my truck that it has been needing since August of last year. Man, poor Meria doesn’t get any money spent on her at all. At least she is cheap.
I got just the backpack I wanted today. I have wanted that backpack for the past 4 years, but couldn’t justify spending $60 on it just so I could have a nice backpack. Now, here it is 4 years later, and I have it, and it was $11 cheaper than it was 4 years ago. I was surprised the Army surplus still had it.
I was just thinking this morning how ridiculous it is how cheaply I live. Before today, I can’t remember the last time within a year I spent money on something solely because I and I alone wanted it. After having said that, I will remember something of that nature that happened just last week. Actually, I do remember something. I bought a can of spray paint last summer. Haha ridiculous. It kinda felt good to buy that backpack just because I wanted it. Even though it was almost $50, it kind of felt like I was taking care of myself in a way that had been neglected for quite some time. Kind of like I was telling myself that I wasn’t dead last on the list of priorities. I wonder if I will feel guilty about it later.
So last night, after you left, I borrowed Aimee’s facebook and looked up Jessie to see if she was still around or if she had moved away. She’s still here in longview. I wonder why I haven’t seen her for a while. It is nice how she concerns me less and less. You looking up Abby made me think about that. Boy howdy, what a mess that was. I sure am glad I’m out of that. Thanks for letting God use you to help heal me.
And I love you, and it was really nice to be able to give you all that money today. I miss you, and I wish we got to be together more. Today is 99 days. Friday is one year with you. Without question, the best year of my life. Thank you so much for choosing me and loving me back.